Hey there folks. Its 1.36am. M a bit tired. From Friday night's clubbing session and yesterday night's wedding dinner.
Emotions are a bit worn out. Weddings does that to me. Not because im a cynic. Nor because im jaded.... just that... people have their off days. Days where they feel not as emotionally strong as they usually are. Days where they just want someone to cuddle up to say that everything will be fine.
Weddings make me have those kinda days. Urghh...
... yes, thoughts of *him* does come by more often these days. But... im dealing. Learning to let go and forget is... trying. Im getting there. But slowly. There are good days, and then there are bad days. N nights.
Tonight's one of them. Gawd, i knew i shudnt have gone to Bob's wedding. I HATE WEDDINGS FOR GOD HEAVENS SAKE... aiyahh.
But in d name of fship, ku gagahi juga walaupun ikutkan hati ingin ku lari jauuuhhhhhh....
... now im lying in bed in Gombak, listening to Kerispatih - Tapi Bukan Aku and Coco - Mengintai Langit. Two songs that are sengal and dun help lift my spirits. But u knw wat? I wanna wallow in self-pity and sadness for tonight. Seriously.
Yes, i'll prolly wake up in d morning with a hell of a headache and lousy mood, but demmit... aku takde moooooddddd okaaaayyyyyyy.
SIAL LAAA LELAKI SORANG NIIIIIII. KENAPA SENGAL SANGAAATTTTTT...
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.... like i said. Takde makna. Hadeih.
Wokieh folks. Mata dah sepet. Nighty-nite. Out.
Emotions are a bit worn out. Weddings does that to me. Not because im a cynic. Nor because im jaded.... just that... people have their off days. Days where they feel not as emotionally strong as they usually are. Days where they just want someone to cuddle up to say that everything will be fine.
Weddings make me have those kinda days. Urghh...
... yes, thoughts of *him* does come by more often these days. But... im dealing. Learning to let go and forget is... trying. Im getting there. But slowly. There are good days, and then there are bad days. N nights.
Tonight's one of them. Gawd, i knew i shudnt have gone to Bob's wedding. I HATE WEDDINGS FOR GOD HEAVENS SAKE... aiyahh.
But in d name of fship, ku gagahi juga walaupun ikutkan hati ingin ku lari jauuuhhhhhh....
... now im lying in bed in Gombak, listening to Kerispatih - Tapi Bukan Aku and Coco - Mengintai Langit. Two songs that are sengal and dun help lift my spirits. But u knw wat? I wanna wallow in self-pity and sadness for tonight. Seriously.
Yes, i'll prolly wake up in d morning with a hell of a headache and lousy mood, but demmit... aku takde moooooddddd okaaaayyyyyyy.
SIAL LAAA LELAKI SORANG NIIIIIII. KENAPA SENGAL SANGAAATTTTTT...
(T______________________________T)
.... like i said. Takde makna. Hadeih.
Wokieh folks. Mata dah sepet. Nighty-nite. Out.